Jacob M.

I think I've ask about some of these instances in the past. If so please indulge me. Recently I've been noticing things about girls I probably didn't focus on as much on the past. I mean, I knew it was there. I think I just had better self control then. So now it's a glaring issue in front of me and I don't know what the protocol as a guy is. In the last week there have been at least 4 instances where I have been so completely distracted by a girl it's been hard to hide. The first instance involves this new girl who just moved here. She happened to be talking to me as she bent down. I happened to turn toward her at the same time and I saw everything. I had to quickly look a different direction as to not be caught staring at her boobs. The next one involves another girl at work. I got off work and I was standing in the break room. I was trying to catch my breath as she came in. She had a short sleeve shirt and a long sleeve shirt on. The shirts were really tight and revealed her assets. I knew they weren't work shirts so I was curious as to what she was going to do. She had a blue shirt in her hand. As it is slightly hot this time of year I thought "Is she going to take her shirt off?" I saw her do this in the past so it was a legitimate thought. As she put the blue shirt on over the top of the other 2 shirts I ask "Aren't you going to get hot?" as I motioned to her choice of clothing. She said it was to make the manager mad. I had to physically turn myself the other direction as a talked to her. I couldn't stop looking at her chest and I knew if I didn't do that it would have been really obvious. My coworker needed a ride home so he was standing across from me as this happened. On the ride home I said "I know I probably shouldn't be saying this, but were you distracted by her too?" He said "You mean the whole chest area?" I said "Yeah, I had to turn the other direction to keep from staring." He said "It was ok for me to look. She was mainly talking to you." We were busting up laughing about it. He gave them a 10. I completely agreed. Then a couple days ago another girl at work was wearing a white t-shirt. After she took off her vest I could really see it. You could see through her shirt. I could literally see the color of her bra through her shirt. I'm pretty sure it was black. It was hard not to look. Same day the previous girl walked by me as she went to clock in. She was wearing a blue shirt. I could see through it and see her bra. It's probably a good thing I only saw her from the back that time. Today another girl at work just happened to walk by me. She didn't have her vest on so she must have been on break. Her shirt was tight and I could really see everything. She had big guns and they were poking through. I'm not even sure if she had a bra on. My heart skipped a beat. So is it ok to look? I really don't know what to do.

http://observer.com/2015/10/guys-heres-what-its-actually-like-to-be-a-woman/ I found this article to be very interesting. From what I can tell about you Leykis I'm guessing this would be the opposite approach of what you take to women.

I have never liked Hurricane. To me they sound like a generic Warrant. They do have awesome cover art and that's what led me to buy their albums.

That is weird. Especially considering the amount of hype they put into that release. So is the old site still active? I think the prices were better on the old site.

It's not a bad song. Could probably use a bit more work though.

The right to self determination. Everyone should have that right.

I moved 2,000 miles away from my moms family to get away from them. I got tired of being manipulated and screwed over by them. There's only so much a person can take. I'm not enemies with any of them. I just don't actively keep in contact with anyone more than I have to. My older sister is one that gets me. When she moved to college she changed. The last few years have been really bad. I don't ask much out of my sister. I would only call her once every other month and it was almost impossible to get a hold of her. Then when I finally did get in contact with her she acted like she couldn't wait to get off the phone and get back to her husbands family. Is a short phone call every other month really asking too much? So if that's how she wants to play it I have no intention of contacting her unless I absolutely have to. There's no point. My younger sister is a disaster. I think she means well and she wants to do well. She is just incapable of it. She doesn't have the will power to do the hard things in life to get herself out of the mess she's in. I'm in better standing with most of my dads family. Of course I have only known them for 8 years. My dad is a different story though. We had a falling out 5 and 1/2 years ago. I haven't talked to him since and I have zero intention of doing so.

I didn't realize such a thing existed (the chat room thing). It's unfortunate when stuff like that happens. I found myself in the middle of one of these situations a few years ago. Thought the guy was manipulating her. He likely was. Later I found out she was f'ing crazy too. So I probably would have been better off just cutting ties with her.

What's going on with this release? I couldn't even find mention of it on the Eonian website.

I'm slightly confused by this story. What kind of chat room was this? Did it involve a web cam girl?

That's insane.She looks kinda cute too. I think you meant "looked". Stuff like that kind of ruins tattoos for me.

I'm honestly getting tired of the Marvel made comic movies. They are becoming really cookie cutter.

Too many good songs on this one. I went with So Far Away because it's a feeling I am all too familiar with and no other song has really captured it.

Try working for the Decepticons. It will steal your soul and make you suffer.

I've hit some hard times. I'm just now starting to break out of it. A good portion of it has nothing to do with her. Everything just fell apart at the same time. I have been in bad health for a while. It has just gotten really bad. I need to get healthy before I leave. I talked to her Tuesday night after work. That wasn't a very pleasant experience. We worked out some of our issues. Things still aren't rosy, but at least I don't have that hanging over me. It's very doubtful we'll ever be close again. It's probably best that way. I've never actually been to Georgia. I'm from the Sooner state and I have zero interest in ever returning. A lot of stuff has to be worked out before I leave. I'll definitely consider stopping in Ogden for a day. I don't know if I can actually make it happen though.

I've been listening to Chasing The Dream. I'm really getting into it.

I don't know man. I think we could use a couple more.

https://www.yahoo.com/news/30-old-woman-just-won-223300360.html These might be the dumbest people I have ever heard of. At least they're eliminating themselves from the gene pool.

https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/happened-fell-love-much-younger-160000348.html Not quite as bad as the other one. Still makes your head hurt if you think about it too much.

I get what you are saying. I am listening. I would have ask YOU Leykis, but you went Mia. So I've been winging it. All I'm saying is that she WOULD have been mine if I didn't tell her I was leaving. There is no doubt about it. So for her to tell me to my face the other guy is better is an insult. She said it to inflict pain. I intend to go to Georgia. Probably the Savannah area. If I could I would leave this month. I need to save more money. So it's looking like July.

Happy Birthday mate. I wish Amy Reid could deliver your birthday cake.

It seems like we've been playing a game of cold war with each other. Or at least it feels that way. She knows how I feel about this other girl. She also knows the other girl is more important to me than she is. Of course me being head over heels for a girl I can't have isn't that bad. It's nothing compared to what she is involved in with anyway. I honestly don't care what she does in her free time. It doesn't bother me. We aren't in a relationship after all. Maybe she does care about the things I've told her. If this is a cold war I think she won it. I do intend to leave Oregon in the very near future. As soon as I get my affairs in order I am moving. Before I go I have at least 1 card left to play. I will make my feelings known to the other girl. If I see an opening I will make a move. I'm not sure I care if she is in a relationship. Since I'm leaving it won't really matter.

When I broke 2,000 nobody seemed to notice.

And one more. The site is having trouble accepting the other.

I got this tattoo a couple months ago. I wanted to let it heal before I posted anything. Now I'm trying to figure out if I need a touch up. Any thoughts?